I just started pushing my YouTube channel. I have been posting almost every day for the last month and I don't plan on stopping anytime soon. be sure to check it out and subscribe to it! I think it really showcases a comedic side of me that some of you haven't seen in my movies. click the video above to see welcome video.
Life is really hard these days. pursuing this career is HARD. Since i last posted I have really gone through a lot. I broke my hand and had to have two surgeries on it. I got into a car accident that totaled my car and the car I bought afterwards broke also. I had to move back home to Michigan to heal up and save money for a new car. Since then I have really been struggling with wondering what is happening with my life. I've been feeling defeated, utterly defeated. I know It's just a phase and "This too shall pass." It's been really hard to see people around me succeeding and booking things left and right and i haven't been on set in 5+ years. I'm tired. I'm frustrated. I'm annoyed. I'm irritated and annoyed, I'm sick of feeling like I don't even know if this industry is even for me. If I don't have acting, I don't have anything. It's really hard to explain but when you honestly have something permanently built into your soul and you feel like you're failing at grasping it, it takes apart of you with it. I will NOT give up and i know this is just a phase. Jenna Fischer says all successful actors must suffer in order to succeed. I can honestly say that I am suffering. After being homeless, flying to places, sleeping on the floor at airports for auditions, sleeping in my car, losing relationships, ruining my credit, going broke, moving 13 different times to sleep on couches and air mattresses, moving away from friends and family, going through job after job, getting fired for auditions, making no money to making more money than I could ever make working for Marvel and feeling completely hopeless because I wasn't acting. Still, I'm happy I got to pay off my credit card and my car I wrecked. I was gripping. I was window shopping. Looking in from the outside, watching other actors live MY dream. Life is not fair and I know It's not meant to be fair. I just have to rise above this. Sine I broke my hand, I lost 30 pounds and I'm going through a minnie depression, having to move back home and start over with life. It's good to see friends and family but it really such feeling like I'm at a complete stand-still. I will not give up though. I've had a lot of people tell me "Well at least you can say you gave it your all." Did I? I still have breath. I am still alive. I'm still HERE! I will be able to say I gave it my all when I'm looking Jesus in the eyes and my life is long gone. I will fight for this career until the day I die.
I hate how hard things have to be just to chase a dream. I hate the struggle even though I know It's molding and humbling me. I am humbled. I am humbled.
A lot of us get caught up with our lives. We forget the bigger picture. We forget to experience. We forget to LIVE, myself included. You owe it to yourself to get out there and go through life with a spontaneous approach.
As an actor It's so important to get out there and live. It's absolutely imperative that you go outside the box and do more than just go through the motions. We draw from our experiences. How do you expect to have a good career with nothing to draw from? GO OUT! LIVE! LOVE! LOSE! FEEL!
There's an actor who once smashed a poor child's toy RC car and broke it so he could understand what it's like to feel that HURT that you've put in someone. I'm not saying you should break a poor child's toy but It's important to relate to your emotions to give a raw performance. Go out. Live!
I want to experience what life has to offer. I want to run in the rain for no reason. I want to feel adventurous and spontaneous without worrying about the outcome. I want to help people, have you ever felt the feeling of being truly appreciated? I want to jump out of an airplane to feel that RUSH. I want to feel hurt, I want to feel happy. I want to meet people and experience all that life has to offer. Yes, I've hurt people in the past and I've most definitely been hurt. Losing a father to suicide has really given me an unfortunate gift to FEEL and EXPRESS pain on screen in such a way. It's given me anger and regret. It's filled me with sadness, with a lack of closure, with a constant wondering of WHAT IF but that has caused such a beast inside me that will always help me create a powerful, relatable character for my career.
My main point here is this, It's our responsibility to experience life to It's fullest so we can share our experiences of emotion for others to RELATE to. You can't live life in box and expect to be inspired. You must live to be inspired. Find INSPIRATION to INSPIRE. Don't be afraid of getting hurt. Don't let circumstances control you. Don't be apart of the mold. SEPARATE yourself from the rest and show people that there is more to life than just existing. There's more to life than existing, There's Living!
Love the FIGHT
A lot of people get so caught up in other people's opinions. I'm guilty of it myself from time to time. When you allow other people's opinions to get the best of you, you're really getting the best of yourself. We are in total control over our mind our body and our spirit. You make the conscious choice everyday to get out of bed and face THIS day however you decide to face it. Allowing people to put you down, hurt your feelings or make you fell LESS than is only you hurting yourself. It's like the saying goes, you better not ever get beat because you beat yourself.
It's completely up to you how far you want to go in life. How successful do you want to be? We all have that inner choice to do something great. Sometimes the outcome you want takes longer than you expected but I can promise you one thing. If you stay the course through all the battles and being told NO over and over again, you work harder than you ever have in your entire life, you DON'T give up, you STOP feeling sorry for yourself and you PUSH through the pain, blood, sweat and tears you will find that light at the end of the tunnel and It's going to be so satisfying knowing that you made it when everyone else around you said you couldn't. You're going to get banged up and hurt along the way. That's inevitable but it also creates character and drive. Sometimes Being told NO or falling apart every once in a while is the best motivational experience you will ever have.
I've been in Atlanta for four months now and I've had countless disappointments from unexpected problems like my laptop crashing or car not starting. Yes, I had that moment with my head on my steering wheel asking myself "how am I going to get through this" but I PUSH through it and find a way. God has a way of working things out. I've started this journey with a personal trainer and I've injured myself twice now but i stayed the course and worked around my injuries, I'm all healed up and still going strong. I've gained ten pounds of muscle so far!
Sometimes there are things in life you just have to outlast. Just stay the course. JUST STAY THE COURSE! Be the best you can be everyday.
Love the FIGHT!
LIGHTWORX ENTERTAINMENT FILM, ASHES OF EDEN, TO DEBUT ON UPLIFTV and
PARABLES TV APRIL 1st.
Edgy Crime Drama Available on DVD April 5
Nashville, TN (December 2, 2015) – LightWorxEntertainment film, Ashes of Eden, is set to make its world-wide debut on UplifTv and ParablesTV on April 1, 2016. Air times will be forthcoming. The Inspirational yet edgy crime drama, written and directed by Shane Hagedorn and produced by New House Entertainment, Collective Development, Inc. and Ahptic Film & Digtal, will also release to DVD nation-wide on April 5, 2016. The official trailer for the film can be viewed at www.lightworxentertainment.com/films/ashes-of-eden.
“Ashes of Eden is a film that brings to light the consequences of making the wrong choices in life yet shows the redemptive power through our Faith,” says Isaac Hernnandez, VP of Programming for UplifTv and Parables TV. “While this is a very edgy movie, it is a perfect tool to use with the younger generation to bring them to Faith. UplifTv is very excited to partner with LightWorx Entertainment to bring this great movie to the masses.”
A new and unique family-friendly television network that offers more inspirational movies and documentaries than any other faith-based channel, UplifTv is available to all Direct TV subscribers with HD-capable equipment on channel 379 and on a growing number of cable television systems.
ParablesTV was developed to provide families with an alternative to traditional network television. Featuring Christian movies, documentaries, series, children’s programming and original productions, Parables programs are thought-provoking, uplifting and inspire discussion about topics that are important to faith. ParablesTV is available via subscription and can be viewed on iPhone, iPad, Android devices, Apple TV and Roku.
“We are thrilled that UplifTV and ParableTV are partnering with us to take Ashes of Eden to the masses,” Randy Maricle, LightWorx Entertainment Managing Parnter, explains. “It’s a great film that will have a definite impact. We’re glad these networks understand this and are willing to take a risk with an edgy film.”
Ashes of Eden is the story of Red (Sutherland), an 18 year-old who made some bad choices and done his time, but is still paying the consequences. Secretly selling stolen drugs in order to help his police officer mother (Anschutz) pay the mortgage, Red unknowingly starts a bloodbath between rival dealers and ends up in the center of the spotlight. This gritty cautionary tale proves that having a bad reputation and being in the wrong place at the wrong time are an unfortunate combination – even when you’re trying to do the right thing – but also reassures that redemption can come.
ABOUT LIGHTWORX ENTERTAINMENT
Launched in January 2015 by industry powerhouse, Randy Maricle, LightWorx Entertainment exists to provide content creators with a profitable and creative option for marketing, development and distribution – using Christ-modeled business practices – that will deliver their product to end consumers with impact. With four films already in the market for 2015 and six more before the end of the year, LightWorx is gearing up for a big 2016 with seven films, including three theatrical releases, in the first half of the year.
For more information about LightWorx Entertainment and its releases, please visit www.lightworxentertainment.com. Updates can also be found on social media: Facebook, Twitter, Instagram and YouTube.
For more information and media inquiries, please contact:
Anita Crawford | Springboard Entertainment
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When you're faced with an opportunity of a lifetime what are you going to do with it? The worst thing in the world is losing to someone who isn't better than you. The worst thing in the world is having an opportunity to CHANGE YOUR LIFE and not working hard enough to get it. You have the chance to do something great and you're wasting it.
The ones who make it in this world are the ones who put it the work even when nobody is watching. They don't give up, they don't let fear influence them in a negative way, They create, They're WARRIORS! Don't be outworked by someone with less talent than you. THE WORST THING IN THE WORLD IS LOSING TO SOMEONE WHO IS NOT AS TALENTED AS YOU. THE WORST THING IN THE WORLD IS HAVING THE TALENT WITHOUT THE DRIVE. You need to GRIND you need to FIGHT you need to PUT IN WORK if you want to get to where you want to be in your LIFE. Tell me something, what are you doing with your life? What are you fighting for? GRIND! Push yourself! Lose sleep! Don't be afraid to take risks! OUTWORK EVERYONE! I'll say it again, OUTWORK EVERYONE! Be the ONE who beats those who are more talented than you because you simply work harder. BE RELENTLESS. BE RELENTLESS BE RELENTLESS BE RELENTLESS! FIGHT! FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!!!!!! Stop making excuses for where you are right now. You are exactly where you are because of the lack of work you've put in. and when you GET TO THE TOP, WHEN YOU GET TO WHERE YOU WANT TO BE, WORK HARDER! BE A BEAST! Stop giving up Stop working to 50% of your potential and PUSH your potential beyond 110% Put in 120%! Put in work for yourself. For your Life, for your loved ones. FIGHT FOR IT! BLEED FOR IT!
Love the fight
I love you guys, Keep fighting
It's day five in Atlanta. I'm making slow progress. I wasn't as prepared as I thought when I got here. I'm tightening up my resume and getting updated head shots in two days. I've made some very helpful connections so far. It seems this southern hospitality is a real thing. I'm going to start taking a few workshops and acting classes as soon as next week I'm hoping. I have hindered my chances at getting a national commercial but that's okay because you learn as you go and I'm not going to allow progress to halt. Failure is a learning experience. We grow strong from it and we MUST never be ashamed of it. I would say I have the right to be ashamed only if I did nothing about it. Pick yourself up and LEARN from your mistakes. BETTER YOURSELF.
I do have two auditions for lead roles in feature films coming up which I'm pretty excited about. One of which I know I'm super excited about because It gives me an "excuse" to gain some muscle mass. We will see how those go! nonetheless They're opportunities and opportunities are always a good thing.
Love the fight.
This is a blog for updates on my career and interesting news of upcoming projects and past projects!