What inspires you?
I began to ask myself this question... What inspires me?
This question really hit home for me.
What is it? WHAT inspires me?
I know exactly what inspires me. On a deep level. Tragedy. In every unfortunate aspect of the word. I hate it. I HATE IT! But pain and heartache is something to learn from. dealing with my fathers suicide is still not easy. It hurts me every single day.
I get little memories of events growing up.. Little flashes of moments with my father. Moments with smiles.. Moments with tears. tragedy has taught me that I can overcome anything that's thrown at me. Some may take longer than others. Every bit of pain I've experienced in my life has taught me extremely valuable lessons in life. One of the most important lessons I've learned in life is to not give up. No matter how hard things get. I cannot give up. Every terrible thing I've experienced in my life was because someone gave up. They gave up trying, they gave up self control.. They gave up on themselves..or they gave up on me. For the longest time I was so afraid to get close to anyone out of the fear that they would leave me just like the closest person in my life did. My own father.
Reflecting on this I realized that not only getting close to someone, but getting close to what I want in my life was a scary thing. it was scary because I could fail. It was scary because I may get so close and fall through the ice. Completely falling flat on my face. Due to the tragedy I've been through in my life... I've learned that I can swim even in the coldest of water. A struggle is not a failure.. let me repeat that..A STRUGGLE IS NOT A FAILURE! ... A struggle only makes the win that much more rewarding. The main point to this blog is to open your eyes. No matter what you've been through in your life. No matter how bad things have been... remember this... THIS IS WHERE I AM AT... NOT WHERE I WILL BE. We must overcome tragedy before we can put our best foot forward and show the world what we're worth! It is those who have been through the worst in life that have the most to show for their fight... BUT you must FIGHT. if you don't... you'll drown.. raise your glass that's not half empty... that's not half full... YOUR GLASS IS FULL! RAISE IT!!!!!! Raise that glass and repeat these words... THIS FIGHT, THIS STRUGGLE THIS HARDSHIP... THIS IS WHAT IS GOING TO TURN MY LIFE INTO EVERYTHING I WANT IT TO BE. I WILL OVERCOME THIS AND I WILL BREAK DOWN EVERY WALL THAT IS PLACED IN MY WAY!
Love the struggle....because you CAN overcome anything!!